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To a married man: It will shock you how much it never happened

To a married man: It will shock you how much it never happened

The men after my marriage ended: Part 1

Christine Hyung-Oak Lee 🐓💨
Apr 02, 2025
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When my marriage ended, I was at a loss. One of the things I lost was the sense of feeling desirable. I’d been with the same person for over eighteen years, since the age of twenty-one. And that one person no longer wanted me. And so. I decided to get my magic back. Kind of like Elizabeth Gilbert eating, praying, and loving—except in hotel bars. Drinking instead of eating. Playing instead of praying.

<Law & Order voice>These are those adventures.</Law & Order voice>. DUN DUN.

me in a red knee length dress hand on hip, holding a silver rhinestone clutch and wearing silver rhinestone pumps. smiling on the outside, crying on the inside. the unhappiest happiest looking thin person ever.
2014 in a red dress, ready to make a man cry

Another life

He was naked in front of me. Weeping.

“What am I going to say to my wife?”

I stood up straight, feeling like I was towering over him. My mind sobered.

“What the fuck did you say?” I took an authoritative tone.

“What am I going to say to my wife?”

“You are not saying anything to your wife.”

“What?”

And then I said the words I’d been waiting to say ever since I first heard them on Mad Men. I quoted Don fucking Draper.

“It will shock you how much this never happened.”

“What?”

He had clearly never watched Mad Men.

“This never happened.” I tried to put on my best Don Draper face. Never mind that I was in three-inch rhinestone heels and a stage of undress.

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